Babies!

I just found out that I'm pregnant with baby #4. Yay! It is crazy to me that after 4 kids, I am still feelings I had with every other pregnancy. Such a mixture between "woo-hoo!!" And "oh my goodness-how are we going to do this?!" With each pregnancy, we have been in a place in life where we have been trying to figure things out with Mitch's work/finances when I'm pregnant, and in the past it has all worked out. I hope and pray that this time it does too. Mitch has a very big test for work coming up that determines a lot for his career. He is very nervous, and I really really hope that he passes.

We have been debating another baby for a long time now, about a year. It was something I just couldn't really get out of my mind, so we decided to have one more and make it work! I had a miscarriage a couple of months ago, which I felt really at peace with. I had prayed to Heavenly Father that I had gone over this decision a million times and couldn't decide what was right for our family and just turned it over to him. When I quickly miscarried I just felt like that was Heavenly Father's way of saying it wasn't meant to be then. Before I found out I was pregnant this last time, as I was saying another one of those prayers-basically "we would love one more baby in our family but we are accepting of whatever you have in mind for our family, and whatever is best for us is what we want" I felt this instant clarity and brightness when I said this, and I just knew we would get pregnant this month. I even told Mitch the next day that I just had this strong feeling we were going to have another one now.

I am excited, and I know I will only continue to get more excited, but I just need to write down some of my hesitations with this pregnancy to read back on someday and smile because it was all fine :)

-I love having Ivy as my baby and my sidekick. The thought of having another baby kind of breaks my heart in a way, because she is such a great baby. She loves being the princess and we all love making her our little princess. It will be hard for me to shift gears and not baby Ivy as much as I do now.

-Work, work, work! Please let it all work out!!!

-Am I ever going to be able to get home now with 4 kids?! I don't think I could possibly fly without Mitch anywhere!

-Waking up in the middle of the night. It was never a big deal for me in the past, but I feel much older and more tired now!